Emotional Rescue

first pub­lished 2009

Ever had a hissy fit?
Ever blown your stack?
Ever been really hurt and cried for days?
Ever ranted and raved and carried on?

If so then you have emo­tion….

(bet you felt bet­ter after­wards)

and that brings me to the sub­ject on my wid­dle mind today …

Emo­tions.

Do we hide them or do we leave them open to be as they are?

as we grow we are taught to refrain, to con­trol and to ignore our emo­tions.

In today’s soci­ety we even have lit­tle hap­py pills that take care of our emo­tions for us and damp­en them so that we do not feel emo­tion. We are taught as we grow to con­trol oursleves. Not to feel or to even think too deeply.

Yeah I get it.. emo­tion hurts. The easy way out is to take one of those pills and dull the sens­es from that emo­tion.

How­ev­er I’m not like that. I have nev­er hid my emo­tions.

Because I tru­ly believe that emo­tion = heart = pas­sion

and I am a pas­sion­ate per­son. With­out pas­sion life is bland and bor­ing and I feel that to exist as opposed to liv­ing life ful­ly is not what I wish to become in life.

We are often told not to cry, not to yell or not to be upset. Let it go, be the bet­ter per­on and ignore it… ah YES ignore it. Ignore yourslf and what your body spir­it and mind is try­ing to tell you.

how often do you ignore your­self?

How often do you hide from your emo­tions?

I read an inter­est­ing let­ter from one of my so called sup­port agen­cies the oth­er day which basi­cal­ly stat­ed that I am very artic­u­late but emo­tion­al.

I’m proud of that. I guess it wasn’t writ­ten in a pos­i­tive light but who cares. I am emo­tion­al. I am proud of my emo­tions because my emo­tions real­ly tell me what is going on around me.

Is it ratio­nal to con­trol ones feel­ings or is it more ratio­nal to be nat­ur­al and to feel and expe­ri­ence ALL there is to expe­ri­ence.

How can you hide your emo­tion and yet love freely?

How can you damp­en your feel­ings and still feel freely?

How can you tru­ly know your­self if you hide from what you feel?

You can’t You become a lit­tle less human and a lit­tle more robot­ic. You lose indi­vid­u­al­i­ty. You lose your sense of self. You become some­thing a lit­tle less than your­self. You, the inner you becomes hid­den behind an emo­tion­less mask.

I cry I laugh I love I hate but most of all I live and I live to my utmost. I see I think I touch I taste I hear but most of all I feel through life.

I won’t hide my emo­tion. I will feel what there is to feel whether it be joy or sad­ness melan­choly or despair.

and by doing that I will go on… I will move for­ward and not be kept stag­nant, I will not be trapped or held hostage by those very emo­tions kept tight­ly locked with­in my mind, slow­ly dam­ag­ing my soul until I too become that robot­ic emo­tion­less thing.

I love my life. I love it all. I take it all and accept it all.

It hurts
It sux some­times

But it rocks too